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This fanfiction article, DT 2022: Sister's Remorse, was written by Distant Tide. Please do not edit this fiction without the writer's permission. |
- Shizuko.
- This is Andra.
I hope my letter finds you well, and hopefully in high spirits. It’s been a little more than four weeks since we parted at the end of the Imperium conflict.
I want to begin by saying my writing skills aren’t the best. Not like Joshua-G024, my Headhunter mentor you met on the battlefield very briefly, I think. But I’m trying my best to say the things I want to say and ask you that I didn’t when we were together for that campaign.
When Merlin and I joined you again after a year on New Syracuse, I wasn’t sure what to think or do. Merlin felt the same way too. I didn’t know what to say to you, and I admit my first reaction was not the best. None of my behavior was good during the time you were acting team leader. I’m sorry for my behavior, I have no excuse. I was just dealing with some pains regarding Boson’s dissolution.
Let me just get this out of the way. I knew you lost your team in DARK DESCENT. Team Boson received details about that operation, and what I want to say is I’m sorry for your loss. Team Entropy was my family too. All those memories pulling pranks on other teams and getting in trouble together, getting treated like shit by the drill instructors. They were some of the happiest days of my life. You were a great team leader and Daniele would’ve agreed. You both got along so well and I think we all learned from your examples because of it. I’m sure it’s why we didn’t end up like Team Gravity or Anion and having problems with our sister teams.
I’m sorry you had to hold it in on your own and I wished every day since we left that I could take you with Merlin and I. We should be there for you. It’s not right for you to suffer alone. If there’s anything I can do to help get the remaining Boson and Entropy members back together, please let me know. Merlin and I will do everything in our ability to help.
Hector. Elena. Mika. Itaru. We miss them too. I miss your brother too. He was like an annoying little brother to me too. Daiki, none of them, deserved the fate they got. War is war but that doesn’t mean we should accept it for what it is. Not immediately anyway. Grieving is important too.
There’s so much I want to say to you, and I want to say it to you in person. I wasn’t ready during the Imperium conflict but I hope I will be when we meet again. For now, I hope a letter can work as a start. The last time you saw me before the Imperium of Clarity, I could barely hold a conversation.
Now all you probably think of me is an angry little girl who hates everything and everyone. I didn’t mean the things I said to you. I want to be clear that I’m trying to grow up and get better. That’s why I could yell and argue. This is who I am and I’m not proud of it. I had a lot of people on Earth that gave me a chance and helped me grow. I’m recovering and getting better; I have Merlin to lean on when I can’t find myself.
What I am trying to say is, I want or can be your support if you need me. We’re friends. It’s what I’m supposed to be for you and I didn’t. I messed up and I’m sorry. I want to say to you especially is that, I love you. You’re my sister and I always want the best for you.
I’m sorry I could never verbally say it. Roxanne and Merlin encouraged me a lot but I always failed to when it came time to try. Now Roxanne and Daniele are gone. Zach is off to his own adventures. You are too. Merlin and I are off to deal with some Insurrectionist space stations.
If you need me, for anything, please message me. It will take me some time to respond but I don’t want to be strangers anymore. I’ve gotten enough of that, however little it was. We should never be like that.
For now, I used some of my ONI stipend to send you some bottled soda. I’m not sure what you’ll like or if you will like them. No one has my level of sweet tooth in Boson so who knows. It’s a variety case anyway so I hope you enjoy it when it reaches you.
Message me as soon as you can. I miss you.
- Your sister,
- Andra-D054