User blog:H*bad/Thoughts

I'm essentially gone, forever. I left as quite possibly the most controversial admin this wiki has/will ever see. Funny, looking over my contributions from years long past, it's not hard to see why so many were excited that I left and why so few were disappointed. It is, with great honor, that this wiki that I left so long ago is still churning out articles. This will always be one of my favorite accomplishments in my early life. I've written about how proud I am of this community, so I won't go into that like I did before. I don't know why I felt like writing this, but it just felt right.

Soon, another anniversary for this wiki will come up. It excites me that I can log onto here and see progress being made. I was able to take a little time off, so, I decided to come on here and see how things were. I've spent the better part of the past few hours looking over old articles of the past. It's strange to me to read some of the stuff that I wrote, I have no real recollection of writing it. Most of the time, while reading it, I was thinking: "Why would I write this" or "Boy, that was a cool idea". Even though I say that, I still remember so much good that happened. One of my favorite memories is still finding out that both RR and I submitted to Wikia the idea of a Halo Fanon Wiki. That was the beginning of an interesting relationship and without it, I don't know how this wiki would've changed or even if perhaps it would be the same as it is now. I guess I will never know how my contributions from the past affect the wiki now, it's so different from when I helped start it up.

I wrote a "Memoir" that I really shouldn't have, so I've put a delete tag on it. Even though most would never find it, I only felt right trying to get rid of it. I should never have written it. Honestly, I wish I could find a ghostwriter for it. I doubt anyone would want to spend the time writing my memoirs on this site, especially one that nobody would ever read. If anyone was interested, you may contact me, but if not, oh well. It's no worries.

It's interesting to me to see who is still here and who is not. It truly is terrific that Ajax-013 was finally made a Bureaucrat after all these years. I still remember when he was brought on board. I'm late to the congratulations party, but here I am! I remember that he and I didn't get along when I was around, but good on him for sticking to it. I know a few years ago I wouldn't have said with this, but Ajax truly was the better man out of the both of us. He had it together, I did not.

I'll end this blog with this Doctor Who quote, I feel like it best represents my relationship with this wiki: "Great men are forged in fire, it is the privilege of lesser men to light the flame.". I guess it should be disappointing that I am one of those lesser men, but to see the flame still going on is very touching and amazing.

But to end this on a more optimistic note, I look forward to coming back here soon enough to check in on the lot of you. Have a wonderful New Year and thank you all for the memories.

With love,

-H*bad Co-founder of Halo Fanon