User:Spartan 501/I am Afraid

I am lost and scared. I wonder about the eternal, and about death, I hear my heart pounding as I run away from myself. I see things I wish I hadn’t. I want to finally be free. I am afraid.

I pretend to forget. I feel as if I can. I reach for my heart but find only decay. I cry in the night as the light dims. I am afraid.

I understand I’m not safe. I say I am not afraid. I dream that I haven’t done the wrong I have done. I try to forget it. I hope desperately I will not again. I am afraid.

I continue to wrong I feel helpless against it I wish uselessly at sunset And fall victim of my own weakness I want to stop, to live I am afraid